"you have a place in my heart no one else ever could have - f. scott fitzgerald
baby,
i'm so sorry. i'm so so so sorry. i don't know what else to say.
i miss you. i can't remember the time before you occupied that special place in my heart. i can't imagine a time where you won't.
i'm so sorry.
i didn't think of you much tonight, fought so hard to put you out of my mind. it worked, partially - everyone was asking your whereabouts. i didn't feel like talking, so i sat outside and smoked a lot.
everything went still afterwards, i laughed a lot, my mind blank and my heart quiet. i'm reminded of how lonely i was feeling while with you.
i left early, but it was late. crawled into bed without a further thought of you.
i'm tired baby. you are the love of my life, you're who i want to be a partner to, the one i want to love my children with, spend my years with, curl up against. your tears are the ones i want to kiss away. your hand on my heart.
why does holding on feel like it could be both the most beautiful and equally painful thing in my life.
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