When I compare myself to other 19 year olds, I'm not really sure where I stand. I guess I'd like to be able to say that I've done much more than others my age; but when I truthfully think about it, why haven't I done that? I mean, most of it is within my control and my reach. After all, who's to really stop me? 

I dream a lot. Maybe I spend more than a fair share of time dreaming than actually working for something. That bugs me to an extreme level. And it bothers me that I cannot go further than what I hope for. 

Perhaps, when I've realized that it's not easy surviving, it'll be easier to work. Oh perseverance, why do you desert me so?